I sit here wondering what goes through your mind every time you make an excuse for him. I wonder why don’t you wake up and take responsability for what he is doing and what you are doing. Realize that you don’t trust him and he obviously does not trust you. The neon sign is flashing and you cannot see it. I wonder why? Marriage, a life together, a family together means you must trust, jealousy has no part in this, maybe a sprinkle or two, but fights over opposite sex friends, jealousy over having a past, wondering and most importantly worrying about the past is something you must get over. You cannot live in the past. The past is the past and it should and will most likely stay there. You say that he loves you because if he didn’t he wouldn’t care enough to bring such things up but the fact is that does not prove his love it proves his insecurities and mistrust in you.
What you have with him is lust it always was, probably always will. You’re replacing the love from your parents with his because you need to feel whole, you need to feel support, but what are you compromising by doing this?
